PuddinPie

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Find it, Independence by PuddinPie, literature

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Find it, Independence

I've tried to deal with heartbreak, but oh, how it pains me. I've tried to mess around to find somewhere that I can be. I've tried to let you go, but I just can't make myself. I've tried to move on, but baby it just hurts me. I've tried to heal the pain that keeps me up at night. I've tried to fix everything that I've screwed up, to make this right. But nothing seems to work out, nothing seems to get to get me there. And I'm surprised that I still care. But I do. [*] I've tried, I've tried. And all it's got me is Your lies, your lies. Nothing make up for All the times I've cried. So I'm just left to stand here all alone. On my

The Ghost's Remaining Breath by PuddinPie, literature

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The Ghost's Remaining Breath

Please walk into the cemetary, a stroll into the dark. An old night time adventure, with new thrills to the heart. This is now your home. Sit down, stay a while. Stand up, look around. Tell the world about the meaning of life you have found. For it will be no use to you, now that you have moved on. The inevitable has come for you, as expected as the dawn. Sit down, stay a while, for there's not much else to do. Nothing, to be honest, for the world is through with you. Sit down, Stay a While... Stand up, look around... Lay down, stay forever... Stay forever in the ground. Forever gone, forever lost. Forever trapped to pay your co

Escape from a Slave's Life by PuddinPie, literature

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Escape from a Slave's Life

Stacked dishes on the mantelpiece, caked dirt on everywhere. Four people in a living room and all are worse for wear. There's no one to look after you, nor is there room to breathe, Because you have lost everything the day that you lost me. Don't even dare to ask me, because the answer's no. I will not stay here anymore - can't afford not to go. You made your final judgement here and left me high and dry, So now it's my turn to refuse to be the one to cry. For long enough I have put up with you and your relent. It doesn't matter now just what you said, because you meant It everytime you wished that I was not just who I am. You've m

The Final Farewell by PuddinPie, literature

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The Final Farewell

I used to think that all there was is misery and hurt: The feelings that I had for you while face-down in the dirt. Bitter, empty, hollow things that echoed in my thoughts, and prove you're stronger than before, but Sweetie, you're still lost. I saw the edge of life tonight as seconds ticked on by, And as time passed I couldn't find a reason to survive. I wanted to increase the only feeling you left here because it's all I had of you, aside from all these tears. I held on to the pain you caused because it's all I had; The only part of you that I could ever have held back from every other part of you that left me here alone, Stealin

Walls by PuddinPie, literature

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Walls

Behind this wall of lies you sit, your heart so cold and hard You separate yourself from me because of all your scars You’re scared of what you want, my dear, and what you just may find. If you could only turn around - look to the other side. You’re so wrapped up inside yourself and everything you hide While I’m left to imagine what could have been tonight You tell me that you’re sorry, but you can’t apologise I can still forgive you, but I can’t say this is right So I will wait behind your walls until the day you say You’re ready to come out again, and start another day For now I’ll waste my

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It's in the way you think of me, and how you let me know just the way you feel for me; the way you let it show. It's something that's so complicated in its simplicity. It's nothing but the world that turns and falls away from me. There's not a thing that I could do to stop this feeling now; it's slowly taking over me, and it's tearing me down. It's a brilliant type of sanity, being crazy over you, But it's the only thing that's left; now all I have is you. I want to let you live your life and let you be alone, but sometimes it's so hard to do, when I just want you to know You're the only one I see, and nothing else compares to the

My Music Is You by PuddinPie, literature

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My Music Is You

It's just another song that's playing back in circles in my head. One more round of this melody, and there's nothing left to be said. It's killing me, the way I feel when I know that I'm alone. I'm finding that it's difficult; this last song syndrome. And now that it's returned, my dear, I'm nothing but alone. You see, the music in my head right now is far from any song. It's nothing but your memories, of you just passing through the life you changed forever, 'cause my music now is you.

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Find it, Independence by PuddinPie, literature

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The Ghost's Remaining Breath by PuddinPie, literature

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The Ghost's Remaining Breath

Escape from a Slave's Life by PuddinPie, literature

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Escape from a Slave's Life

The Final Farewell by PuddinPie, literature

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The Final Farewell

Walls by PuddinPie, literature

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Walls

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My Music Is You by PuddinPie, literature

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Artist // Photography

Canada
Deviant for 16 years
She / Her

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5'5 and 3/4, long brown hair and green/blue eyes.
My favourite colour is purple.; I am in love with music.; I donate my hair for cancer wigs.:
& I work at No Frills, and I like it!

Everyone calls me Mandi.
I love my life.

I am me.
Like it, or love it; or leave it.
♥

Current Residence: Canada
Favourite genre of music: Everything
Favourite style of art: General photography/edits
Operating System: Windows Vista

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Photography, cuisine, fashion, music, literature, dance

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PuddinPie

Aug 20, 2009

Pride

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Summer's almost over, which is unfortunate and sad. I didn't get as many pictures as I would have liked over the season, but I enjoyed it more than any other time in my life. So it evens out, right? Right. In other news... I have a wonderful camera. I am just beginning to realize the immensely fantastic quality I get in my shots. Most of the stuff I've gotten from it since April still isn't up, but I'm making some sort of a system to get the best of my work up as soon as possible. I also just got my own copy of Photoshop, so I am officially going crazy editing things. It's wonderful. And my latest update, I have recently decided to become

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PuddinPie

Jul 29, 2009

Misunderstood

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I don't know if it's just me, or if I'm just letting go too easily. But for some reason I just can't stay mad at you. And how could you blame me? You really are perfect. I was foolish to deny it, just like I'm foolish to believe it. I know you never meant to hurt me, and you will never want to. But the fact of the matter is: one day, you will. Unfortunately that's been on my mind lately. All good things have to come to an end, right? Well, they do. And this is not pessimism, it's realism. As much as I would like to believe that I have found the one, and that we might have a chance at spending forever, just him and I, I doubt it will ever f

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PuddinPie

Jul 28, 2009

Untitled

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Sometimes I wonder what the point is. I have the perfect life. I have lovely friends. I have a great apartment with my amazing mother and my favourite old cat. I go to a good school with free, public education, and I have a fantastic job near my home and school. I have nice things, good health, and an overall decent existence. So why do I always have to go and screw it up? For a while I thought maybe you would just be one more perfect thing to add to the collection. I thought that all you could bring me was happiness. You were amazing. You were amazing! But that was before all the lying. They warned me, too. I knew it would come to thi